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CINDY
Received March 13, 1998
Hi,
I read all the letters in the forum & found a lot of points I would like to talk about.
First off I will explain a little about myself. We have been married for 6 years, together 7 years. My husband is MTF pre-op ts. Our marriage has grown some through the years,
sometimes forward & sometimes back.
Jill started as a c/d. We met through a personal ad. I knew from the start about the clothes, & that Jill was bisexual. I do not mind the clothes; or the bisexual part (as long
as we share the person). My only problem is sometimes I feel as though more attention is given to that side of our marriage than to me. I feel left out when he is in a tg chat room because I don't feel that I am as
special because I am not a tg. Although I am born female, I tend to have more male traits (physical & mental). Jill says he prefers me natural; not made up, jeans & tshirts etc. I don't get many compliments;
he says he has never given many.
Although like most other ts/tv he is very vain in femme. He also says he has a lower sex drive (he probably does) but sometimes it bothers me; I feel it is just he prefers men or
extremely attractive women. He says when he looks at other women it is because of their clothes & I believe him but Oh, to have those looks! He wants to get srs which I don't worry about because unless we hit
the lottery he will never get it (We don't have much money & he owes mucho back child support). He would like to be dominated but I am not into that; I much prefer to feel someone would like to make love to me
for myself. I also feel left out in this because he talks to someone online who is into this, but I don't wish to get involved in that scene & I feel someday I will lose our marriage because I don't want this.
I am straight but do not worry about being called a lesbian or being seen in public, but Jill worries about it very much. She is coming out gradually to family but doesn't know what
to say to his 10-year-old daughter. He is also afraid to come out at any work place but is taking herbal hormones which is making more noticable breasts.
I feel I can use a little support for myself; I am also willing to talk to anyone else (s/o or tg). I do wish to be known for myself & not just as a tg bride; but I do like the
femme side. It's too bad it doesn't come out more often. I guess all I can say to that is however the person is will not change much no matter what clothes they wear.
Thanks for listening. You should open a chat room too.
Cindy
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